Interesting conversation I had with my bestie (mbak ay) couple days ago made me realize something. I HAVE SO MANY CALL NAMES that differs for every academic stage I went through.
She pointed out that it’s weird for her to call me “ben” which is more commonly used by my college friends. Then she expressed her proudness because she has known me since I was still in my “komplemen” era. My middle school besties know me as “komplemen”, my high school besties know me as “abeatfals” and my college besties know me as “ben”. Though what sticks the most as my call names are just “ben” and my real name.
I realized that I love making alterego for me to hide behind. I think it’s not a big of a problem since those alteregos never really interfere with my real personality. I mostly use it just as a safety for online identities. But “ben” is the most elaborate and long lasting alterego I have. I personally love “ben” very very much.
Ben is a masculine sounding name that i like. It is not over the top masculine, it’s just enough. Ben was born on October 1st, 1995. Why did I choose that? It’s because I hated my birth month. I think June isn’t as cool as October (but now I think June is the coolest month!). I always lie to people that my birthday is on october 1st HAHSHASHAS and I successfuly fooled a lot of people back then. 1995 is because I sometimes don’t want to associate myself with gen-z (sorry).
Although I love ben, I love my real name more. I love it so fucking much when people call me “fi”. I can’t explain it but it gives me a different feeling compared to when people call me by other call names.
Anyway, just call me with whatever you like the most, i will respond to anything 😀
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